At school yesterday I got angry. That happens. That's human.
But I acted on it.
A troublesome student pushed all the right buttons, and I responded harshly, saying things to her that I know I should not. I reacted in anger.
There is too much anger in me. I have not given it over to God. I have not asked for the healing I need.
The fact that my spiritual life has been out of whack for more than a month now does not help. Had I been praying, had I been more consistent, maybe I wouldn't have spoken the way I did. I would have been more open to God's help and strength.
But I haven't been. I wasn't open. I failed.
Pax et bonum