As part of formation, we discussed the topic of peace.
I had a hard time.
I am not a peaceful person. There is a lot of anger in me. I have a bad temper. I fester and seethe at times.
As I read the material, as I thought of the Franciscan focus on peace, as i considered the life of St,. Francis, I couldn't help think of my own lack of peace.
I told my formation director that I was so troubled as I read and reflected that I wondered if I could in good conscience make my final profession before I had dealt with this issue.
He was supportive and comforting, but still, the misgivings linger.
Of course, I may never "resolve" this. It may be a life-long issue with which I'll have to struggle. And as a Secular Franciscan, I would be on a spiritual path that will help me if I am open to God's grace.
Pax et bonum