I am embarrassed

While searching for something, I read through a diary I kept for more than a decade in my 30s and 40s.

I was horrified.

The arrogance and unkindness were palpable.

I feel as if I need to apologize to almost everyone with whom I had any significant contact during those years - family, friends, co-workers.

I also realize I need to destroy that diary. I'd hate to have people see what I wrote. Too many people would be hurt.

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Pax et bonum